my boyfriend is a vampire!

when you don't see it, it doesn't mean that it's not there you know?
betul kan? kan?
but when you don't feel it, i think it means that it's not there kot.

macam love lah, when you don't see it, it doesn't mean that it's not there.
but when you don't feel it, u certainly can't see it, and its certainly means that it is not there!

am i right?
maybe i'm wrong.
but this is my blog. so i'm right!
yeayy!! :)



p/s
x kene betul title di atas ni ye. but this is my freakin blog. so i can do what ever i want! yeehhhaaa..

uniquely singapore

i went to singapore last few days. thought of going shopping la konon. sekali mahal gile. ingat kan xmas ni nak ada sale lah. memang ada pun tp still mahal. or maybe saya yg terlalu kedekut.

usually i would upload pictures in my blog. tp saya ada adik yg sungguh pandai, bawak camera tp x bawak charger. how cute! so we cannot take picture. pakai phone je ada.and as i am a nomad now, usb phone ni x jumpa pulak dah. letak dalam bag mana tah. still cannot upload any picture. adoi.

baby and mama shopping gila2 kot. macam duit banyak ah kan. me on the other hand, try try try try, 1 helai baju pun x beli. kasut je 1. bag 1. and my new gadget for 2010. cewah gadget lah sangat kan.

as usual in every new place i go, i will fully explore the local food. mana x gemuk kan. makan je tau. makanan sana sama je dengan malaysia. tp mahal. twice the harga. ish.
tp ada 1 kedai north indian food ni(mamak sebenarnya) nama kedai tu sakhuntala, sedap gila bab*. ada fish head curry sume.
paling best garlic cheese nan dia.meh saya describe, the nan is thin, and soft.crispy on the outside and tender on the inside. the taste of garlic and cheese just melt in your mouth as soon as you bite the bread. cicah sikit dengan crab masala tu. sumpah satisfy my taste bud!memang best gile lah. i can eat that forever. memang badan jadi besar tong lah nanti.

and then we went to sentosa island. best jugak sana! it's my first time. i was so terpegun dengan pulau kecil itu. we went to see songs of the sea. show tu memang cun ah. lampu air sume. fuh terer sapa yg buat tu.
then pegi macam macam ride lg, malas nak tulis satu satu.

our hotel is betul2 dekat orchard road(macam bintang walk tp lg gempak), xmas eve tu punya lah ramai nye manusia. its like the whole world in 1 place.s'pore tu dah la kecik, nasib baik x tenggelam je. melayu ada,mat saleh ada, cina ada, india ada, arab ada, philipino ada, paling x tahan sekali bangla, adoi. spoil the xmas mood la.seriously idk what they eat sampai boleh mengeluarkan bau setengik itu.

at the airport before balik, we nearly kene tinggal. sampai dia dah announce last call. atas travellator tu kitorg lari lintang pukang dengan beberapa cina yg juga lambat seperti kami. sampai depan gate dia tulis dah gate close. damn!
but luckily x betul2 close lg. fuhh. selamat. and the malang did not stop there. masuk je dekat tempat tunggu tu, ada this 1 nigerian pakai baju traditional dia, and he looked very suspicious. or maybe saya yg paranoid lebih kot. sepanjang flight i pray that he didn't plan to blow us up ke apa.

55 minutes later, we landed safely at lcct. fuhh, selamat sekali lg. alhamdulillah.
so thats it, my pictureless trip to uniquely singapore. tak lah unique sangat pun. ~

here in my home.

i'll be leaving for singapore tomorrow. i'm very looking forward to it. but i'll blog about that when i get back.

i've been moving from a place to another these days. just like the old days.
since the divorced of my parents, i've get use to moving.
people always say, "there's no place like home". well i don't think that is wholly true.

i've stayed in bukit antrabangsa half of my life. it felt like home to me. but then maybe it wasn't. then i moved alot. i lived in subang, shah alam, brickfields, sungai petani, cheras, hartamas and now here. rite now. in the middle of nowhere.

i started moving a lot when i was 11 years old. so from that day on. i started believing that, where ever i am, no matter where that is, as long as i am with my mum and sister, that is home.
that place will be our new home for the time being, before our journey starts all over again.

where are you??

i hope you're reading this, although i doubt it.

where have you been?can't seem to find you these days.

i've been looking all over for you.

thought of filing a missing person at the police station today.

but then on the second thought, you're not missing!

you're just lost.

lost somewhere in the place owned by someone i don't know.

the other half.

my life is important to me,
without them,i might not have such life,
so they are very important to me.

♥

'__'

blog biru saya buruk.
saya rasa begitu rendah diri sekali.

the stalker that i am.

once in a while, i'll view your page.
looking at the pictures of you and your family.
the pictures of you and your friends.
the picture of you and a girl having dinner.

read what you thought at that particular time.


often i feel like i know you.
often i forgot, that maybe,you don't even know i existed.

path.

hey you!

yes you!
i wrote this for you, because i know you're reading this.

don't say u won't or you can't change, because u did.
for better or for worst, you did change.

in order for things to change, it will, and it must start with you.
so don't be afraid of changes, as it will soon lead you to the road not taken.

just remember,this time, to be wise!
you'll find the right path.

The words I combine.

finished drafting financial statements today. lega rasa.
but still, taxation belum lg. aduh.

i'm blogging to get my mind out of this final exam thing.

i drove in a heavy rain today. and as usual my brain started thinking about this and that.

so i remember i woke up in the morning today, to see the faces of my friends. i remember how we laugh about stupid jokes the other day. i remember how we gossip about people. i remember when they tell me stories about their lives.

i remember it now.
i remember.
i may remember it tomorrow and the next day.

but will i remember it in the next 5 years? can the memories be stored in my brain forever?
maybe i'll remember some of it. but not most of it. i don't think so.

i don't want to forget about it, but eventually i won't be able to remember it .

so from this day on i've decided to write about my memories. to write everything that i can remember, so it will last.

because the words i speak won't last, the memory in my mind will fade, and the feelings i feel will change.

but the words i write will remain. unless one day, i make a decision to erase it away.